New chapter, new life, and a New Blog

This is just going to be a quick note. My life has drastically changed since my last entry here. So I figured it was time for a new blog. Anyone interested in following my blog, I will post a link to it on my facebook page and I will only keep this one up for a little while longer. I will post a like to my new blog on here later.

M.

It's been a long time!

Hello to everyone out there!!! I know it has been a long time but I am terrible with keeping up bloggings and keeping up communicating with people in general! So I apologize for that :)! But I'm sure I'm forgiven because I'm sure everyone is busy this summer :)! Well, I will be at my job for eight months on the 13th of this month! I am finally yet slowly getting financially stable. That is something I have been trying to do for the last three years and I am slowly getting there. I will not be attending school this fall because there were just too many changes in my life going on that I decided to wait till I was settled to tackle yet another one. I will be going in the fall of 2008 which is also good because then by the law of the state, they cannot look at my parents tax information and base my financial aid on what my parents make but only on what I make. The state of Wisconsin does not consider a person fully independant until they are 23 years old because parents can claim them under their insurance until they are that old. So that is probably a good thing that I postponed it yet again even though I hated doing that yet again. I have gotten so frustrated with the fact that I keep postponing my school but now I see that maybe God had that happen for a reason. So I am ok with it :)! Shaun and I will be seeing each other for a year in September. I cannot believe it has been that long already! He met my parents finally yesterday and they gave him their approval. I was so happy and relieved that this hurdle was finally accomplished and over because I was so nervous that they wouldn't like him. He finally decided after not really wanting to commit to it, to set his feet on the right path. My parents have armies of people praying for us and I know you all are praying too. Shaun was raised Catholic till about he was ten years old. Then his mom became non-denominational and took everyone with her. But his parent's marriage fell apart and after all the pain and suffering, Shaun became very angry with God and did everything wrong and evil in the eyes of God. But now through His saving grace, Shaun is slowly coming back and I think God has chosen me to help this wonderful man and bring him closer to the Lord. Shaun is coming to church with me next week and going to confession for the first time in twenty years. I am going to teach him the rosary and we are going to "embark on this wonderful, glorious, and happy journey together" as he put it so clearly! So please, keep us in your prayers because I have seen that the devil has an immensly strong grip on this man and I know, as all of you do I'm sure, that the evil one will not give up one of his prized souls easily. I explained that to Shaun and told him that the right path will not always be easy but that with God's grace and through the prayers of all the saints and the Blessed Mother's combined with all the prayers for us said by the faithful down here, we will pull through and come out victorious! Shaun is very excited and yet very scared at the same time so please help me storm the gates of heaven with prayers for this man whom I see is capable of great holiness! Thank you all so much for the countless prayers said for us already for I am sure they have helped us immensely and probably brought him to this point. You have my complete gratitude and be sure you are always in my prayers. Thank you again. Yet, I am sure I have written enough for the time being, but I will try to keep you all posted on our progress and not have such a huge lapse in time before I write again :)! May God and the Blessed Mother keep you and I will talk to you all later! Arrevedierci!

Mary

2007 Has finally arrived!!!!!

Well, I hope everyone's Christmas and New Year's was a safe, happy, healthy, and blessed time for everyone!!!!! Today being the Epiphany means it is the end to yet another Christmas season. My Christmas was very nice and spent with my family and also Shaun's family. Midnight Mass was the highlight as always and it was just as beautiful as ever. I received many nice gifts and had some great family time. New Years was very nice and quiet. I watched the ball fall on Times Square and, after a few "Happy New Year" exclamations, I retired early. Other than that, life has been pretty uneventful for me. I have just been pretty much working and spending quality time with Shaun. As always, your prayers are greatly needed and appreciated. Rest assured you are always in mine. Shaun has been going through a particularily hard time recently, which if I recall correctly, I have already informed you all of. You see, he is searching for true happiness and direction in his life. He was raised Catholic but still is not sure if he wants to go back to his past faith. He comes to me many times with questions and has even spoken of maybe one day attending Mass with me. He is in need of much spiritual help so please keep him and I in your prayers. Thank you so much. Well, I reget to inform you that I have meny things to do today so I will bid thee all farewell for now and promise to be back and write again soon. Arrevedeirci!!!!

Mary

Hello Again!!!!!

Well not much happening here. I celebrated my 22nd birthday on the first of the month. It was really a nice one. God sent me a blizzard for my present lol!!!! I went sledding with Shaun that night and went shopping with my mom for the weekend. I have been pretty much just working at my new job and spending alot of time with Shaun. Please keep us in your prayers especially him for, like I said before, he is going through a very difficult and stressful time. As always, you are all in mine and your prayers are greatly appreciated. I have been getting used to my new life down here and am very happy. I had a great Thanksgiving and I hope you all did too. Shaun and I spent the day together and instead of turkey, we grilled steaks and potatoes outside and sat around a fire for a while and then came in and had a wonderful candlelight dinner. It was very nice and now Christmas is almost upon us. I have so much to do and so little time to do it!!!!! Well, on that note I will leave you all and talk to you all later. Have a wonderful holiday season and a very blessed Christmas everyone!!!!

Mary

It's been so long......

Yes, it's been so long since I last wrote and believe me so much has happened. First of all I moved out and into my own place. I liked it a little bit but now I have decided to move in with my biological grandparents and stay with them so I can save a lot of money and go to Milwaukee Area Technical College next fall. I quit my job on Monday and have been down here in West Bend since Tuesday and already have two interviews set up so prayers are needed in that area! I have met a man whom I have fallen completely in love with but he too needs lots of prayers cuz he is somewhat confused as far as religion and other important things in life are concerned but he has a good heart and that's what keeps me going with him. Thank you for all your prayers for they are greatly appreciated. Things have begun to clear up quite a bit and have been working out very well lately. However, there are still some difficult spots and I still need to work on those. There is some news that might possibly occur soon but until I know for sure, I won't say what it is. But if it is true, it will change my life forever. So please keep praying for me!!! Thank you all so very much for being here and actually caring because when you feel all alone and completely abandoned by everyone, then you realize who is really here for you and who you can depend on in difficult times. Well, I have to go search for more jobs so I will let you all go for now and talk to you later. Arrevedeirci!!!!

Mary

Still struggling......

First and foremost I wish to thank you for all the prayers you have ben offering for me. Things have been a little better but not much since I still have so much going on. Due to shortage in finances, I will yet again be postponing my schooling. I hated to do it but did not have much of a choice. I am looking for my own place and also a better job. My phone is now back on so that is a relief. My mother and I are still at each others throats though. I am beginning to believe that things will never change between us. We hardly ever talk anymore and that is fine with me because we always end up fighting anyways. My father talks to me occasionally but he feels so in the middle of things that it puts him between a rock and a hard spot. I try to keep him out of things so he doesn't feel that way but, I can't do much else for him. The rest of my family won't even talk to me because of what is going on between my mother and I but oh well, life goes on. I was able to quench my feelings for the man who was not good for me but I have recently met up with an old friend who may be more to me than just a friend. He is not the kind of man I would have gone for before but he has something that makes me feel drawn to him. I can't put my finger on it. But anyways, I should get going so I will talk to you later. Bye.

Mary

I'm still alive

I know that you are all probably wondering where I am and if I'm still alive. Yes I am here just barely. I am so alone right now and angry at the same time. God is so far away from me and I have given up trying to find Him. I feel like I am walking through life in a black cloud and that no one is there to help me. My mother and I are constantly fighting and nothing is making it better. She is telling me what I have to do with my life and I am not really caring at this point what she says because the ideas are what she wants me to be. She says I am running from God and yet He is right there waiting for me. Maybe I am, but I couldn't find Him even when I was looking for Him. Nothing is making sense and all I want to do is forget about these problems running through my head. But I have to deal with them and my mother is just making it ten times worse. She has accused me of every possible crime in the book and I have done nothing to deserve that. She says I can't make it on my own and that even if I try it won't work. Maybe she's right but I am so lost and hurt right now, I can't see straight. Everything feels like it is going wrong and yet nothing really bad has happened. I told her that I couldn't move back home because I can't deal with all the problems at home. Not only would I have to contend with my parents and my challenged siblings, but also my nagging grandma and John who is so stuck on himself and tries to dominate me that I know I couldn't handle it all. I am trying to find my own place, trying to find enough money to go to school this fall, trying to make enough money to pay my bills and get my phone turned back on, and trying to quench my feelings for a man that I know is no good for me and would break my heart. I am so tired of fighting with people and running into problems all the time. Please pray for me for I have given up almost all hope.

Mary